Heart Of A Mother

This SelfPortrait was drawn Live seeing in the mirror & then finished later as I can’t sit for long hours due to chronic pain

Upon Cocos passing, A Petmomma, Who knew Coco & is also an Animal Communicator, Told me, That Cocos work isn’t Finished yet & he will come again into our lives as our pet child. She knew. Nothing about, How Coco helped me through lupus being a therapy dog. I even told her “After what he did for me, there are No Expectations from him”, But upon knowing that she reinstated, that most pets if their work isn’t complete due to their short life, take birth again to finish their love.

All she said is, “Keep Your Heart & Doors Open” as they know how to contact

& when they ask

“What A heart of a mother is?”

A blanket of Silence enfolded me

A Warm Sense of One’s Self

Upon receiving a child as Gods gift

Where she sowed seeds of love

& nurtured them with tears & silly songs

Where she sang to him of moons & stars

& from her very bosom bloomed many a sunflowers

When he taught her to truly love & showed A Heart of a Lion that knows No fear!

Yes but “isn’t every child meant to fulfil one’s parents wishes & upon your child’s passing,

He’d come again,Didn’t you too wish”

Ahhhhh…

Which mother feels her love for her child shall ever be complete?

Maybe Gods universe shall crumble

But a heart of a mother Never Ceases

Yet let me tell Thee,

This Gift that God Graces upon us

Is not a Possession, That for One’s Safe Future, Needs redeemed!

Coco walked by me with such pains of my broken body

That even God wept along us!

He showed me the beauty of my soul

& even in his passing

My life, Only As his Blessing Be Told!

But today I,

Crushed those very sunflowers of my prayers,

So as to not burden him

Asking Beloved

“Does Coco, Truly wish to come back…”

Then & only then;

“Breathe life in those Wings”

For Coco Never Once was a “Possession”

But a love that washed my soul & made me laugh,

Even though Ground beneath me,

Crumbled, With the Pain this body bore!

Then How could I ever wish,

That his birth again,

Should be to Swallow this darkness

That befell upon me

Nay!

Our love ain’t so cheap;

As To measure One’s Gives & takes

As a payment for Our Selfless deeds

It’s A Love Pure,

Where He gave & I received & I gave only to bloom more as him

So today I’ve crushed those Sunflowers of my Silent prayers

Asking God

“If you Ever Send him;

Then let Not his birth be here,

For cares for his mother’s ailing”

For Far too many chapters of our lives are scribbled in Tears & Pain,

Whilst his love Alone held me Steadfast

No Child should Ever Be Born

As a debt, To Fulfil One’s Parents Wish

But, Only because,

One’s love ain’t Complete

Hence, Today I Crushed those

Flowers of my prayers…

Asking God- “Do What’s Best for him!”

To me, Thats What A Heart of a mother is!

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©️ Meghna/2022